BITTERSWEET

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I love the word, “bittersweet”.   So many things are sad/sweet and I like having a word that means that.  Today’s post is very bittersweet for me.  It is my last weekend with my friend who is moving to a nursing facility this week.  I have seen the facility and it’s brand new and beautiful.  Her room is much bigger than I expected and she has a nice view of the woods that surround the facility.  Huge, huge bathroom with huge shower.  Even has a small fridge.  Staff seems very nice.   She will have most everything she needs but when you have just turned 60 it just doesn’t seem right to spend the rest of your life  in a “facility” no matter how nice it is.  There is no other choice.   She has to have 24 hour care and it has now progressed to more than I and my co-workers can handle.   Being the type of person I am, I having a hard time letting go.  I think about her daughter who is flying in this week and has to deal with this plus get her mom’s huge apartment emptied out by May 1st.  How is she going to do it?   How is my friend going to cope being in a new place without us there to help her?  Does the new staff realize how dependent she is on help?  What will she do all day?  So many things to worry about and yet, there is nothing I can do.  My time with her is over.  I will go on to help others but will always  think about her and wonder how it will all end.  Bittersweet.

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About thelumberjackandthegypsy

The lumberjack is my husband and he owns Arrowhead Wood Products; Arrowhead Toboggan and Snowshoe; and Lake Superior Furniture Co. and is the exclusive manufacturer of wood shutters for Summit Hill Shutter Co. The gypsy is me, and I have a passion for teaching people to tap into their creative side, even when they think they don't have one! I did not grow up creative or artsy and I was in my thirties before I started sewing and creating things. I am a rug hooker; artisan teddy bear maker; painter (from pictures to large pieces of furniture!); knitter; doll maker; needle-felter, repurposer; sewer; decorator; blogger; glamper; reader; vintage jewelry maker; junker; and now a shop owner. But the lumberjack and I feel our greatest gifts in this world are our four grandkids and our daughter and her husband and our relationship with Jesus Christ. We have been married for more than 33 years and most of that time we have lived out in the country on a hobby farm where we have raised chickens, turkeys, ducks, goats, pigs and beef cattle. We also homeschooled our only child for her entire school years. We lived out our dream of being like the The Little House on the Prairie and they were great times. I also have a personal blog: rantingsofamadqueen.wordpress.com where I tell stories of what life on the farm has been like and other things that pop up in my very weird mind. I prefer "quirky or eccentric" instead of weird (sounds more fascinating and less creepy)!

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